'The hope is the most cruel of all the lovers and can crush your heart like a polysterene cup.'

nightmares

'Silent screamer filled with fear
As the night time shapes a face
Then disappears
Scared forever into believing
That your mind has met the
Prince of whom you see.'

Once a day, your mind becomes totally helpless and the subconsciousness takes over the reason. The worst of your fears emerge from the hiding place and don't let you forget about the darkest of thoughts- that's the power of the night.

...

'Still I fear and still I dare not laugh at the madman' cause even a madman has his own right to decide and the mind to think

donum gratum

Who doesn't like it? Everyone wants to be taken aback. Surprises make our life nicely fuzzy and vivid. They keep us in motion and let the bonds tighten. So let's not allow our common sense take over the control. With the fading of spontaneity, the inner child within us dies.

a new academic year

A new period in my process of education has just started. My new group at IJA seems to be nice and I feel accepted there (don't need to pretend). A wave of positive, exciting knowledge and an inch of adrenalin have a healing influence on my mood. The troubling thing for now is my seminar at PiPs. I have to tackle the problem of my research work, gather people who would be kind and able to trust me to be a subject of my study. When it comes to the issue of my heart, it's doing very well. A. works in the sector of Transport and I think he enjoys it very much. Unfortunately the lack of time doesn't allow us to see each other as often as we would like to. But we always find way to meet anyway.
The events worth mentioning are:
the lecture with a noble Professor whose English accent I adore profoundly.
the matters connected with the beginning of the semester such as IOS makes my days busy and tiring
Latin is great but just as curiosity
My A. has a great attitude towards my grandma. It seemed as if he took pleasure of teasing her:)
Somehow my written lg comes hard to me, so it wouyld be better if I finished here and made a dot.

Seems like I haven't logged in for years. But to be honest nothing peculiar happened. I'm up to work all the time, day by day. Working as a waitress has its prons and cons. The real pain in the neck is my boss- the old woman with moustache heh heh and bad breath. Another maniac is our chef- obscene and cheeky guy with bipolar mood. Fortunately my co-workers (great girls)are fabulous and our common enemy unites us and triggers mischievious jokes. My summertime is going to an end. And I feel as if I didn't take a rest during my holidays. I know I wanted to get some job and earn some money, but probably I'll have to take some days off from school in October unless My A. will hit on any idea. By the way, I'm really proud of Him. He got an incredible job, just for him, and passed the entrance exam to University. At least one thing that gives him assurance that everything will be just fine. In two weeks the lectures and commitments will come back. Again some changes ahead of me- a new faculty, new friends, new roommates (I'm looking for them now) and Thesis to write. Ehh, will see what days will come and what they'll bring.