in stupor

Yesterday's morning and afternoon was just horrid. After all the worst experience ever is a complete silence. Thoughts were spinning around causing doubts and creating unbelievable string of events. And a suspence hanging in the air was simply unbearable. A lunch I gulped down, stuck in my gullet. I was feeling unneeded, stunned, resigned and hardly eager to change the situation. I was trying to observe following steps and to see when we would end up. It is so difficult to be apart however, despite the troubles. Fortunately everything panned up positively. I've scattered Tychy, did some shopping and collected my thoughts sitting at the lake. The view of sun going down was incredible. And this coincidence gave me a glimmer of hope. I wanted that evening to be good till the end. And so it was:) This is amazing that My A. has no idea how his words influence me and how just one accidental sentence can give me comfort or at least hope (which is a lot). And everything is going on its own natural unpredictible route now...Good