bliss and happiness mingled with apprehension and fear

The past several days were filled with abundance of emotions. Once I felt like in heaven, lost and safe in caring arms of my Beloved One, another time completely confused, scared and anxious about the future. I think my warped personality can't accept the situation when I lose a grip. I want to have everything under control and anything that goes beyond the limits is rejected and makes me feel insecure. In a nicely arranged world any changes in plan must be faced with expetations and inner voice. I know, that's odd.

Moreover, the amount of work at College is overwhelming, but at the same time I handle it quite well. Somehow, in spite of the lack of time I am able to balance all chores.

I've noticed an amazing behaviour recently. There are people in the world who could be supporting and caring only if they are successful. But there are also people, in minority unfortunately, who can distance themselves from their 'failures' and even have appreciation for those who succeed. I have this honour and unbelievable luck to be close to such incredible people:) World becomes better because of them.