first day at work

Today I was at work for the first time. Supposedly, being a cashier, shop assistant or so, is not a big deal. And it is not. But the most difficult thing for me was to stand still for hours. My spine suffered a lot. Moreover, I ate nothing from yesterday's evening up till 6 PM today. Am so proud of my stomach. And as always I put a huge emotional barrier around me lest harsh remarks of the managers bombard me. After work I dreamt nothing but about a comforting face and voice of My Beloved One. But the reality predominated the trancendental needs. Had to pull myself together and enjoy the evening alone. Sometimes expectations and hope just spoil the fun yet provide you with this thrilling anticipation;) So now I'm lying down on my bed watching crappy 'Polshit'- as Somebody would put it nicely- and probably the night will come very soon. Nite nite